Introduction

It has been exactly one week since the funeral of my beloved wife of 42 years.  Many of you have followed, on Caring Bridge, our journey over the past two years.  With her step into Heaven and the arms of our Lord, it did not seem appropriate to continue to post to Caring Bridge.  I have decided to continue to write of this journey here.

The little yellow pieces of paper will no longer appear on my desk.  Her unfailing love of God will be focused directly on Him now.  Going forward, I am sure these posts will be different than those on Caring Bridge although I know not how.   

My head tells me that with time the pain from her leaving me will lessen.  My heart is not so sure.  We had many happy years together, but the joy and laughter were not finished.  There were still plans yet to unfold.  There were memories yet to be made.  There was love yet to be shared. 

At this point,  I cannot think or plan more than a day or two at a time.  Our daughter, son-in-law and grandbaby have kept me busy in their home this week.  They have ensured that the lows are not quite so low as they would have otherwise been without them.  For that I am grateful. 

Our good friends from the "Beaver Bunch" are meeting me at Lake Fork Texas this weekend for several days of fishing and fellowship.  That will be a welcome change of pace as well.

Beyond that lies the future.  My honest and sincere description of how I look at that is fear.  While I know God has plans for me, human as I am, I cannot imagine what they will be.  I cannot imagine life without Bonnie.  I do not want to do so just yet.  For now, I am living moment to moment.  It is just too difficult to do otherwise.

In future posts I hope to describe some of the incredible things that occurred these past months, about which I have not written.   There are some things that are far too personal to be written here.  Somewhere along the way I hope to discern one from the other and share with you.  Perhaps Bonnie's legacy will continue through these posts.  Her kindness, her caring, her gentle ways, her love for God, and her praise of Him should live on.  Maybe, just maybe, through these posts, others can come to know Him through her.  That would make her very happy.